2020-02-06

《漫漫自由路》
Environment and situation maybe are the most important that impact one's life. In this part, nelson experienced a lot of discrimination and he decided to do something seriously in politics. and he has his own family which made him happy and then he could pay the rent with his wife instead of living in his relatives'. although the situation couldn't be thought as beautiful, it supported a man who would no longer live by his own.

I can't imagine how hard the life was at that time that a man can bear so much with absolutely determination. When they have their own house, some of his friends took his house as a harbor. sometimes, they shared very narrow space, like all children slept in the kitchen, one couple slept in the bedroom and another in the living room. Although in this situation, nelson continued working, learning, and serve the politics. But for us today, at least for me, I can't even get up early to read in a comfortable room.  Laziness  gradually takes up my live and brain. 

I think that's why nelson is a great man and I am just a normal person. I always doubt that whether my choice is right or not. Many things around me now were what I threw away many years ago but many people live with that and take that as their must do things. Sometimes, I am afraid I will be abandoned by the society. But I promised myself that I will throw away something and focus on what I really want. I know, the basic one is wealth. As a person without even a place to live, money is the most important thing. And I also wants to go abroad to study or travel. My dream is that I can have my own house and I have time to read as many as books I like and no worry about money and food. Then I think for me, I should have an interest just like belief to live. Yes, I have a boyfriend and maybe a few years later, I will get married with him, but on the other hand, I am so selfish, I have no sense with all of affection around me. I always ignore the feelings of others and don't realize to be kind to others. The idea of living alone always occur to me which is I have dreamed of all the time.

However, I want have mature an normal relationship with others especially men. the man now taking care of me really have been doing a lot of things to protect me and make me have a comfortable life. So, I should be responsible to him which means when I do something I need to think about him. Respect is the basic thing to be with others. As a woman of nearly thirty, I don't want to be married and have a family now because I know someday in the future I will have another kind of life, maybe not here maybe not with others. But now, I need money to live a life so I know clearly I should try to make money. But I want to ask myself a question: how about when you are old? how about if you have countless money? how about the people around you? They may love you, they may care about you. yes, this is what I should learn to think about. I can't deny that something deep in my blood and bone is that I can' t change because it was planted in them from the root. But I should do something for others and care about others especially about who cares about me.

keep the balance between what other people thinking and what I am doing, accept unfair and the difference among people and others' opinions. Find what you want to do and push yourself to obey the original determination and follow it and also make the utmost effort. finally, time will tell the truth and the result.