残
——致敬林奕含
作者：Julia
你把春天写残了，写她一点点凋零的样子
写她还没有发育完全的身体
被雨怎样地捶打，又怎样被风吹弯了
那是春天的局部
却成了一个女孩的全部
你把花朵写残了，写她还没开放就凋零的样子
写她稚嫩着的肩上成片的刀疤
天堂和地狱同时在一扇门之后
上帝没有帮你开门，魔鬼来了
你没有认出他
你把世界写残了，写她一点点坠落的样子
写想深爱她却爱不起的心疼
你往死里写，你想在一个胡同的终点
给生找出一条出路，你的呼吸被困在里面
精神也是。
你把自己写完了，还是没有能够与自己和解。
如同被采摘掉的花朵，再怎么放在花叶上
也装点不出一个春天来。
世界一片寂静。风还在吹
雨还在下。你把26岁的年轻赠与天堂
在四月的人间吐出最后一口血
有人疯了。
Injured
_ in memory of Lin
By Julia
you described spring as injured ,
withered little by little .
how her underdeveloped body was beaten mercilessly by the rain
and bent by the wind , which was part of spring
but all about a girl .
you described the flower as withered
before she went into bloom .
she had scars of knife on her young and tender shoulders
behind the door were the heaven and the hell
rather than the god , the devil opened it for you
and you failed to make it out .
you described the world as damaged ,
falling bit by bit .
the pain of your desire to love her
which you couldn't afford to
in order to find a way out , you spared no efforts in writing
at the end of the alleyway
but your breath was trapped inside
so was your mind .
you wrote about yourself ,but couldn't come to terms with yourself
that's because a picked flower could not make a spring
even if it was put back at the leaf .
the world is in silence .
the wind is still blowing with the rain falling down
dedicated yourself ,your 26-year-old youth to the heaven
your last mouthful of blood was spat out in April
someone got mad.
关于林奕含
1991年出生的林奕含，今年2月出版了个人第一本小说《房思琪的初恋乐园》，小说描述了13岁主角房思琪被补习班老师性侵最终发疯的故事。
小说出版2个月后，林奕含自杀。
“《房思琪的初恋乐园》，是奕含在年轻时，被一个补习班名师诱奸后，引发痛苦忧郁的真实记录和心理描写。书中的女主角，思琪、晓奇、怡婷等人，都是奕含一人的亲身遭遇”林奕含父母如是说。
3月，林奕含接受媒体采访时说:“但我所知的就是，已经疯了的人不会变成不疯，已经插入的不会被抽出来，我所知的就是这样，我非常痛苦非常生气，已经吃进去的药不会被洗出来。”同时她也对读者表示:“当你在阅读中遇到痛苦或不舒服，我希望你不要认为‘幸好是一本小说’而放下它，我希望你与思琪同情共感。”