0725 digits n./ alien adj. n. v./ notified v.
The bird wishes it were a cloud. The cloud wishes it were a bird. Well, I wish I were both a cloud and a bird.
On my way home, I felt a hint of hesitation pass through my mind, I’m afraid I’m not ready for facing my father’s disappointment. Own my father’s disappointment, acknowledge it for what it is, and move on, it’s a matter of consequence for me to start a new life, however, I may have no courage to face it.
I imagined when I told to my father what I planned to do, he stared at me with shock, as I am an alien, then we started arguing with each other, of course, he would find out it is no use at all arguing with me. I didn’t want to struggle with the digits on the test paper, how stupid it is? Don’t you think so? I want to notify the world who I am. I’m not a bunch of cold digits, I’m a person of flesh and blood.
0726 crash v. adj. adv. / hospitalized v. / adore v.
But there was no doubt that we would face a violent collision. I was like a crazy guy driving a crazy car going the wrong way on the highway, crashing into my dad’s car head-on at 120 kilometers per hour, at that moment, I could just hear a huge bang, craaaaaash, then, everything was all over.
Of course, things would go well, we could solve this problem in peace. My dear dad, I thought he may have no time to deal with something out of his love’s world.
At that time, he has already had a beautiful young girlfriend, yes, I’ve already seen her twice. One time was when mom hospitalized, several day later, dad’s colleague came to visit my mom, she was one of them. Another time was about a month ago, in an Italian restaurant, dad introduced her to me with a little bit awkwardness. I was doleful to see that they had adored each other deeply, thought of my mom, I could hardly help crying and laughing at the same time, yes, we just can love somebody we can touch and kiss immediately, yes, everything was all gone when mom was gone. I finished all the food, the appetizer, the main course, a glass of water, even the dessert, a piece of chocolate cake, in the dead of silence.